Rain Rain Go Away

The weather here has been awful. Nothing but gray, rainy days. Not that one can expect that the May 2-4 would be anything else in this city.

May 2-4...the daves on Magic 99 were making fun of that the other day. They wanted to know how a holiday based on the Queen's birthday got turned into a case of beer. Canadians are a funny bunch eh?

Things here aren't very good right now. My job has become almost so unbearable that the thought of being unemployed is more appealing. I mean there are a lot of other things wrong in my life right now but this is definitely adding undo stress and depression.

My friend Shawn gave me a heads up about some teaching jobs in Mississauga area. I applied to like ten. I've decided I just can't be here anymore. There are so many bad things about this place that I cannot even begin to list them now. It's gotten so bad I'm scared of what it is doing to me.

I remember this feeling really well. It dominated my life for a good six months once upon a time. I remember it because it was this feeling that always felt like it was chasing me. I was constantly running from it and no matter where I went or what I did it still chased me and wouldn't ever let up.

I thought it was gone forever. I was wrong.

So I have tried to think of what I used to do to get rid of it. The only thing I can think of is that I used to go roller blading. So I did. I rollerbladed till I wanted to fall over. For the moment that feeling has retreated. I'm not sure how long I can keep it at bay.

I bought Avril Lavigne's new CD today. So far I'm really liking it! I love my Happy Ending.

"You were everything, everything that I wanted. We were meant to be, supposed to be but we lost it. All of our memories so close to me just fade away. All this time you were pretending, so much for my happy ending." ~Avril Lavigne